Screwed

I am not feeling witty or light hearted. I don't have any interesting observations. I am here to bitch, whine and complain. Not up to it? Then go away. Offended by language? Go away. Now.

I feel like the world is biting at my ass. Everywhere I turn it seems somebody is trying to fuck with me. And I'm tired of it. Just too much bullshit from too many sources all at one fucking time. Yes, I'm pissed. I have a right to be. Strange thing is, I'm too pissed to even muster up a good cry. I'm not sure I've been here before and I find it a little scary.

I'm tired of feeling like people are taking advantage of me. I'm tired of feeling used. I'm tired of people talking to me, excuse me, at me, like I'm stupid. I'm tired of being ripped off. I'm tired of dealing with other people's bullshit. I'm tired of being manipulated. I'm tired of people not living up to their word. I'm tired of the lies and broken promises. I'm tired of jumping through hoops just to have another one placed in front of me. I'm tired, I'm tired, I'm tired.

And none of this has anything to do with the people I love, friend or family. It's all external. For that I can be grateful.