I am an open book...

doesn't mean you know me. Even though I will answer almost any question, it doesn't mean you understand the nuances of my life or how I feel about things. Don't presume to know me based on your experiences, or probably not even from my reaction to you. My thoughts and actions could totally conflict with one another. The law says it is not legal to choke the living shit out of you, even if you deserve it. So while I may be feeling it, thinking it, plotting it, I am likely to be avoiding you. You may never know how lucky you got when I just walked away.