June 23, 2014
I am an open book...
doesn't mean you know me. Even though I will answer almost any question, it doesn't mean you understand the nuances of my life or how I feel about things. Don't presume to know me based on your experiences, or probably not even from my reaction to you. My thoughts and actions could totally conflict with one another. The law says it is not legal to choke the living shit out of you, even if you deserve it. So while I may be feeling it, thinking it, plotting it, I am likely to be avoiding you. You may never know how lucky you got when I just walked away.
June 18, 2014
What scares me
I hear this so much, and it truly scares me. The fact that a person can be going along, living a good life, minding their own business, planning a future and a piece of space debris...or more likely a drunk driver, comes out of nowhere and game over! The uncertainty, the unfairness, the randomness...the lack of any control whatsoever in one's own future, frightens me beyond measure. One can not live a life asking, what if? It would paralyze you beyond measure. But it's a scary world.
June 07, 2014
A reminder...
as I may need to remember this again, sometime.
Lots of people want easy solutions. Easy, as in, they don't have to work to solve the problem. But since they don't have anything invested in the solution, they can complain about it. I have never been afraid to work. I will often take the lead when nobody else wants to. Give me a problem, I will try to provide a solution. But if I am going to do all the work I expect a, jeez thanks, not abuse. If you are not going to like the way I do things, do them yourself.
I say this is a reminder, because this is not my first go round. I say I may need to remember this again, because it probably won't be my last go round either. Finding a solution to a problem just seems to be a part of my nature. Maybe, because for 9 years, that is how I described my job...professional problem solver. I am used to hearing someone say, I want, need, wish, etc. followed by something they have been unable to accomplish, and accomplishing it. Seldom was it a thankful job, but I was good at it. I am a creative problem solver. When nobody else will stand up and say, let me fix that, I tend to, rather than sit around and moan that something needs to be done. I suck at sitting on my hands. I suck at wishing for a solution out of thin air. But, for awhile, I need to keep my head down, my eyes straight ahead and my mouth shut. I won't be riding to the rescue.
Lots of people want easy solutions. Easy, as in, they don't have to work to solve the problem. But since they don't have anything invested in the solution, they can complain about it. I have never been afraid to work. I will often take the lead when nobody else wants to. Give me a problem, I will try to provide a solution. But if I am going to do all the work I expect a, jeez thanks, not abuse. If you are not going to like the way I do things, do them yourself.
I say this is a reminder, because this is not my first go round. I say I may need to remember this again, because it probably won't be my last go round either. Finding a solution to a problem just seems to be a part of my nature. Maybe, because for 9 years, that is how I described my job...professional problem solver. I am used to hearing someone say, I want, need, wish, etc. followed by something they have been unable to accomplish, and accomplishing it. Seldom was it a thankful job, but I was good at it. I am a creative problem solver. When nobody else will stand up and say, let me fix that, I tend to, rather than sit around and moan that something needs to be done. I suck at sitting on my hands. I suck at wishing for a solution out of thin air. But, for awhile, I need to keep my head down, my eyes straight ahead and my mouth shut. I won't be riding to the rescue.
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